PATIENCE = hard, but i'll give my best shot.

today, i spent most of my day hours at home. i started to go out only around 7pm.. and i already reached home by 11.
with that very short time of going out; a friend told me in the midst of dinner "be patience".
and when i got home i read a quote from a friend; it said " a handful of patience is worth more than a bushel of brains."
and you know what's the quote of the day on my church's site? it's "be not angry that can not make others as you wish them to be, since you can not make yourself as you wish to be."
eheemm.. if i combine all of them, they actually lead to an answer of my query.
there are moments which you think is the darkest point of your life, and when you face it you might just need a patience. well, im not facing my darkest valley of life, but it tastes bitter during the season and you might just not want to be patient.
Patience is a word that sounds very simple in the ear, but if you really want to try it; its really h-a-r-d. Taking the first step can be easier, but when you're at the midst and you just can't hold on anymore; you'll shout.. i need patience so that i can be patient enough. well its not that easy being patient and you might just giving up in the middle.
When everything seems to goes wrong, and it is not like how you want it to be; when you can't think carefully and you can't "hear" purely, just take a deep breath, continue life.. yet don't make any decision until you feel better.
Facing today is very tiring, i myself dunno why; but there's something that i can't just tell anyone. the only one that i wish to share with is not around and busy for papers. and it's very hard to get through that person cell. Just now, God reminds me one thing..during obstacles and dealing with problems; never rely to your friends for they're not forever. they can help and but they can also harm you.. be selective when choosing who to believe. when you face a dead end; and your friends seem to be busy with their own things; when they are just half-hearted.. you're never alone. Listen to God.. He has something to say.. Jeremia29:11 really strengthen me.
So.. if you have difficulties.. please find God before you find your friends for you yourself always say "im closest to Him" but you never find Him as the first rescue... (Mat 15:8 "this people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me")

J.. i still believe in your promise that You'll not give me burdens that I can't handle. help me to walk with faith and not by side.. so that my life will always tells about Your love, and not fear.
Even when i cry, i'll say "You're faithful, because Your Joy is my strength."

to the three of you

Friday, Sept17th,08.. today is a special day for some of my friends, and me too :)
i have 3 friends having a bday today.. and all the three of them are very good. I wonder why did God send 3 angels on the same day? All the three of them are very "wholesome"
Anyway, me and a group of friends created a surprise "trap" for ms.A; who is one of the bday girl. we took her to a movie at vivo, and plan to throw her to the rooftop "pool" at vivo.. but her bro requested to cancel the plan bcos she has just recovered. then we went to holland for the 'death trap' it has grown to tradition that the bday person must be thrown by whatevery stinks and disgusting.. and so we happened to throw her with whatever that we can found in the fridge.. egg, expired sauces, carrot juice, apple juice, until hair stand. she complaint that its very stink and the small still lasts even after she showered three times.. hahaha poor you, darling!
then my other pal, ms.C which i didnt plan anything for her actually bcause she plan to go to JB tomorrow morning; therefore i prefer her to rest. and last is ms.M; someone who used to be someone who indirectly motivated me a lot, and let her life be my source of learning. unfortunately we are separated by the land and sea therefore i can't throw you a small surprise party.. :(
anyway below is stated for the 3 of you?
ms.A : very simple, for all your wishes to come true and your potential husband to engage you soon! =P
ms.C : hope that you'll find a true happiness very soon.. everysince that your life has too many bitterness inside.. i love you.
ms.M : wish you'll meet your idol anytime soon! and i hope that your future husband is rich enough to supply all your 'heavy' wants.. LOL

...... im off to sleep now.. way too tired..

anyway

this is a good read.. be blessed reading it :)

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered.
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies.
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you.
Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight.
Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten.
Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough.
Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God...
It was never between you and them anyway.

(mother theresa)

why..

this is the song that i currently like.. more or less like me! (like always,LOL) it's sung by avril.

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way



Why - Avril Lavigne

He always come on time! :)

i've been looking for a place to stay for the last 2 months.. i've seen many options, ranging from the whole unit in a condominium, the whole HDB, studios, room in HDB, room in landed houses, room in condominium, you name it.. i've seen most of them and put them into my option list. the agents that i've used.. is countless. LOL.
i actually feel in love with a room in a bungalow in Holland Road. Jesus Christ, the bungalow is seriously HUGE! the garden is everywhere.. in front, at the back, by the sides, everywhere! and you guess what's the rent for a month for that house? 16,000 man! LOL.. but the landlord said that she's very lonely and she needs accompanion; therefore she offered me a room in that bungalow with only 1,200+utilities share. that's a very berry good deal, because the actual rate of that room is at least 4,000.. it was a very fantastic offer.. but then i didn't feel peace that time, no matter how big the house is, how cheap the price is, how dazzling the furnitures are, i didn't feel peace in my heart.. therefore i couldn't sign the tenancy agreement. the other house that i fell for is again a room in a landed house in Bukit timah, 6th avenue.. dang the owner is rich as well.. she even built a swimming pool inside her house.. again, the offer was good, 1,000 for the common room, and 1,600 for the big room+utilities share. this is a great offer.. remembering that they are located at the prime area. yeah, you know i only stay in prime areas :) my max traveling time is only 20mins by cab LOL. but again i fell for the house, but there's something inside of me telling that i shouldn't make a decision this fast, think more.. so yah..
hmphh.. it was always like that when it comes to houseviewing.. and you know i don't have much time left, we are reaching midst of october and i need to move out in 2 weeks time! this isn't great.. i desperately called few agents more, and ask them to rushly find me a shelter! in my little heart i keep on yelling to my ears, God will provides.. God will provides.. ignoring the limited time we have, i keep telling.. you'll be good :)
then yesterday night, after i viewed few studios and rooms near orchard; my friend told me to come down to his house, maybe his aunty has a room to let. So i managed to call the aunty, and said that i need a room with preferably a bathroom attached. then she asked me to come down to her place, and tralalala.. its a penthouse! it's a 3 storey+the upstairs balcony.. so total is 4. its biggggg.. and the room is very pleasant. it may not look as good as my current room, but this room is big as well, and guess what everything is double there. i have 2 desks, i have 4 doors wardrobe, i have 2 book shelves, i have 2 drawers.. everything is 2.. a little surprise is that the room comes with a small fridge and later on the aunty promised to give me a microwave later.. and yeah, it comes with an attached bathroom.. the great news is they have a maid who will cleans all the rooms and the bathrooms as well.. as well cleaning our clothing and irons them. wowwww i don't need iron and wash :P and guess.. how much is the price! 1,200 includes the utilities.. and it's a master room located in the prime areas as well. my tower is the 1st tower from the security and its just at the back of the bus stop.. amenities are very nearby.. full condo facilities, supermarket, saloon, cafe, etc..i kinda feel good about the place. and what's make me more excited is that the aunty is good, she's lovely and simply charming she has a doctor husband, whom i heard is also good. and yeah, they are Christians. when i first went in the house i saw the sign "God bless hour home" near the shoe rack. i was like.."hmph.. this house should be warm enough with enough blessings inside" and yeah.. i finally took the room, and i kinda like the room.. :) i want to say that God is extra good, He has planned everything for us, things that we never think about, He has thought about it before. who thinks that i'll find a house at night when the time for house viewing is already over? God is great, and He always come on time! from now on, what ever problems you face, stop saying.. "i don't have enough time" you always have enough time, but you may not have the abilities to cope with that time, but God has it.. and He'll do it for you. as long you already gave your best shot.. then what else matter? just surrender, and God will deal with the rest! :)

let's change our mind set.. stop saying "God, i have a biggggg problem" instead, say this; "problems, i have a BIG GOD"
have a blessed day everyone.. :]

life is awesome

geez.. its been a while since i last wrote my blog... hmph i've just came back from Indo..
well, it was fun.. and yeah a lot of funny things happened during the holiday.
but what's very important is what was happened on the day on my return. i was on the cab on my way back home from the airport.. and Mr. D already told me about the mission that we need to do for mr.G's bday. i was like dang... kyahaha..
ok let's go straight to the bday surprise.. what happened last nite?? i was asked to play a role as a troubled kid and i need to ask Mr.G to counsel me..this is due to my big fight with ms.A.. and BINGO! he got the trap.. and so we gave him his bday surprise.. everyone were happy that night i guess, except mr.G who ran out his tension LOL.
and today is the day.. there were few changes on the rundown.. and this gave a tremendous shock to simply everyone who are in charge. but it came out ok.. and we all as a family were very happy and blessed.
time to sleep.. everyone must be very tired today.. today and yesterday are very long long dayyy.. life is really awesome with its blessings that each day carries.. :)