Monday, November 24, 2008

a blast.

firstly i would like to thanks all my good heaps who had put me into shame, but at the same time had brighten my day with the brightest light.
thanks for the expo thingy, i was so shamefull... there were hundreds of people there at the foyer, and you guys just sang and shout.. really appreciate it.. i love all the unexpected happenings.. thanks for putting all the efforts to go all the way to expo, i know expo is not near at all...
like what u guys said, i will not be able to ever forget it. Sidney M may not be around, but Oscar is betterrrr.. hahaha God is good to me all the time :)
and thanks for cancelling that 'bejaters baptism'. love u all to the maxxx, really!
last, i love the juicy!! xoxo <3

deny iskandar.. ur turn is next........... just get urself ready. =P

Friday, November 14, 2008

dalam putihmu..

i just went to my school blog page and found a weblink to the indonesian teacher blog.
i'm interested to this poem, as it is very simple, yet it carries more than one meanings..
there you go, "dalam putihmu.." (inside your purity)

DALAM PUTIHMU

Aku mencoba berputar-putar
Merangkai bunga kata merajut risau
Untuk kusematkan di rambutmu
Yang kadang tak benar nyata
Tak benar warna
Memenuhi hasrat tak bertemu arti

Aku mencoba berlari-lari
Menyiram asa membasah nadi
Untuk menyegarkan jemari
Yang kuyu tak berpori
Agar tak mati

Kutarik mencoba menghardik
Kuku panjangku melukai kulitmu
Tapi darah tak menetes merah
Tapi luka enggan membuka

Aku malah takut
Jika engkau tak lagi punya jiwa
Karena akan sia-sia
Gemeretak gigi-gigi
Di setiap pagi

taken from : www.bahastra.blogspot.com


one more, i also 'captured' this on his side bar..
he wrote this inspirational words:

"Setiap mata adalah berbeda, dan tak ada yang bisa kita lakukan selain berbagi sudut pandang; tanpa harus memaksakan kehendak. Kehati-hatian dalam menilai pendapat orang adalah ciri kematangan jiwa."

eventually, i found a new boyfriend.

and so..., after days of silent cries missing my old-boyfriend, and regretting that i couldn't rescue him from that giant baby..
God met me with a new cutie pie.
The moment when i saw him, i forgot about my ex-Godiva.. and i fell for him.. This time i will really make sure no one can steal him away from me.

MINE FOREVER. hahaha.. so baby, u can have my ex.. im settled with my current (more lovely) boyfriend.


let me intro you.....

(wait, promise me first.. no one else shall fall for my boyfriend, he's mine!)





if you have ever seen rocky junior, this is much bigger, much more cuter, and more adorable! he's rocky senior..
location : secret. (so that no kidnapper will be able to kidnap him)


-little miss rocky-

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

MISSING : BOYFRIEND

and sooo.. i just found a perfect boyfriend yesterday.. but it got stolen by a giant baby.. :(
and what i heard is that he planned to sacrifice my boyfriend in 3 days time..
im going to win back my bf soon before he finish him.. My last info said that it was last seen in The trevose kitchen.. near mbak asih's room. Anyone plan to help me rescue my dear GODIVA?



you see... i won at first.... and my boi was safe in my hands..


until...a giant attack arrived.. and there was nothing in my power to safe my bf :(



for whoever can help me to return my boi before the giant baby finish it, i'll pay your efforts with that small chocolate box in my hands. don't worry they're good, too. Just that i love my bf more.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

surprises along the day..

well, today is Nov 9th,08 and i kinda like today.
i when to church this morning, and i acted as the program director of the run down. And yes, there are many surprises happened on today service.. When i reached the room, i saw no laptop bag.. no body brought laptop to church! i was like "wtheck.." then.. surprise! i saw a plasma screen next to the mixer.. and my word turned from "wtheck" to "cool..!" and so for today service we used a desktop instead of a laptop.. wow! then, next surprise came when i saw edward adjusting the tripod and placed it on the floor.. and yes, the tripod was finally topped with a video-recorder.. and so yeah.. today the e-worship background was lively! aha.. cool.. this is my church! :)
do u want to hear about the next surprise? the preach today was good.. and its quite sensational.. it used coffee machine, and a pot of orchid flower as objects.. kyahaha..
when the service was about to end, there's one following surprise.. there was an additional worship song and so after we are done with the MDC news and suddenly the preacher came to me and asked for an additional worship song.. wahh.. seems that today the Holy Spirit worked very hard! good service for today.. with 2 special guests.. God is great, all the time!

eits.. thats not all. and so all the church goers were invited to Irvin's for restaurant warming. There, one surprise hiden inside. I never know that mr. Baby can sing so well until he performed right in front of my eyes today, and his own-made song was good too! i gotta tell you that he sings better than any male-singers in my church..
This remind me of 'hiden talents'. Everyone alive are equipped with talents.. and rarely you only have one talent. Well, you might have discovered your talent, but are you sure that's all you have? discover yourself more, try more of new things; and you'll find new bonus surprises inside of you and you might not realize before.. my point is.. just don't be scared to try new things, having a talent doesn't mean you'll not fail for the first time. It's common that failure happens on the first try out, but just because you failed once then you don't have any talent in that area! :)

Last, i love today..... my folks are back from their holiday trip. And this means that they can start to draw colors to my plain paper again.. welcome back to Singapore, mates! =)

Saturday, November 8, 2008

IMPACTORS of my life

this post is inspired from Andreas' blog. let me address it as "IMPACTORS"
my church calls their young community as IMAGE, abbreviation of 'impacting all generations', this is because we believe that we're sent to this world to bring impacts for others and to glorify the Lord God..
Below are the list of people that have impacted many areas of my life direct/indirectly and have grown me to this kind of Ollfine. If you happen to see your face underneath.. then let me tell you that i think you are a real impactor. Keep impacting! If you can't find your face, doesn't mean i don't love you just that i haven't learn much from you. So there you go the top several people in my life..

Yes, this is Daddy Jesus. I don't need to talk much about Him as i truly believe that He is the most famous person ever alive.
This life, is i owe Him. The greatest source of love i've ever experienced. All the greatest things.. come from Him. and i'm lucky enough to be chosen to live in this world, and to be forgiven and washed away from all sins its all because His grace. And i can't stand not to love Him. He is the picture that i always want to be like, Someone that i can always treasure and Someone who will never ever fails me. If you, readers, haven't heard about Him.. let me intro you the most perfect creature that the world has ever had.. Jesus.

I understand this picture looks funny, and he looks very narcistic here (upps.. sorry, sir!), but just try to hold your breath for a while and continue to read this blog (maybe with closing the left eye so that you don't need to see this picture)
For everyone who hasn't know him, he is my ex headmaster; as well as my CAS manager. But to be honest with you, i've never seen him as a headmaster at all. He's just too down to earth and he's more to a brother or whoever who can bow down up to our standard. He can drives us here and there, he joins us for student gathering and become the oldest attendant. hahaha.. He shares about his life and about Jesus. Last time, during the madness IB year, i prefer to spent my first break time in his room if he's in; rather than at the library/cafe/canteen. Sharing with him is more 'fun' rather than just sitting at the bench, relax, and sip a cup of coffee. He was the one who brought me to Keputih (for your information, Keputih is the 'sampah' place in Surabaya), and asked me and several friends to do service there. The first week was the hardest ever. The place was stinky and yucks! the neighbourhood community is as yucky as well.. But the 2nd and the 3rd weeks were a lot better, i started to get 'used to' it & i started to love my ministry, serving them & most importantly i began to love them sincerely. Believe it or not, when i first move to Singapore, one of the community that i miss is my Keputih family, the needs but they are also the 'have'. There are many things that i've learnt from him, the way he communicates with people and the way he always like to talk with strangers, and the way he loves his God and his family, last the way he nurtures his job. From my own opinion, he is not the needy; he is richer than any other teachers and headmasters; and if he wants he can creates his own business.. but he chose to humbly him self and be an educator, simply because his love to education and kids.
Last, this is a sentence that he said to me when i went back for my first holiday since i moved to Singapore.. he said," you can never be able to live in 2 different worlds". This statement makes me focus more on 'every happening' in Singapore, and nurtures my life and my ministry here.. well maybe missing one opportunity in negri warna is one of the cost that i've to bear from choosing to serve more in Singapore rather than Indonesia. OK, too much about him, let's move to the next person..

If you can't see his face clearly, it's your Negri Warna Director; Mr. Hartono Adi a.k.a Ko Afuk.
It sounds weird in my ear to call him Ko Har, so let's just address him as what i always address him, "ko pelecehan".
His love to cinematography, theaters, and drama amazes me until now.
He left his school, to study theater; and as i remember his mom disagreed a lot.
But he still followed his dream. The moment i saw him acting, built desires in my heart that i want to join the club too! it's nothing but perfections. His ideas are all crazy! i seriously couldn't believe whatever he said that time when i first knew him. He'll say this kind of thing, "go to that tree and try to ask the tree out for a date.", or "scold that person until you cry (the person is someone who is innocent, and maybe someone new for you also)" or "go the middle of the court and shout and get angry until i let you go home" well.. for sure every eyes will go to you, and think that you're an insane. He is such a nutcase, but i can't deny that all his ideas are brilliant! He can sees what we can't. He can even see a chair, as a house.. i hope now you can see how high is his imagination. I always love his script, & the way he teaches. But one thing that he's very concern about. he will make sure that you are willing to do anything and you wont be shameful for whatever he asked you to do. Once you said, "what, are u sure?" he'll only nod his head, and act angry. He made me fell so deep in love with the movie world just by letting go the old me, throw away that 'logical sense' in my mind, and throw away 'the me' when i was acting as someone else. "it's only all out, or otherwise you'll look even stupider and embarrass yourself more". i agreed to his statement, as i think that taking care of reputation is bullshit; when people ask you to act as a dunce, some may neglact and say no to it thinking that it may ruin their image. But what i see is, even if your role is stupid and embarrassing, but if you manage to perform perfectly; its not your self image that you lost, but its the good reputation that you'll earn instead. =)
Then, when he tought me about "comedia del' arte", wow i fell more to this industry! if you ever watched the dark night, and if you know Joker.. he was playing comedia del' arte. Comedia del' arte is throwing away urself, and be someone else TOTALLY and deny others. and it was really fun! i tried to be mr. Bean for 20 mins, busy with my own 'mr.bean world' deny whatever in front of me, and just forget the ollfine! its totally fun.. all the burdens seem to release. but he always warn me that this can be dangerous as well, once you got so into the role, and you might lose your own self forever. And this is what happened to Joker, he couldn't get out from the Joker in him, that's why he ended up commiting suicide.
One thing that i always remember from his mouth while he was teaching my junior, he said "you really need to have a character to become knownable" "a strong character in you that makes others won't be able forget you, no matter what.. its either positive or negative, but it just have to be strong; depending on what do you want others to remember you as." one very last thing, i love one statement from his church movie, it says "when hands can't reach..faith can" =)

This time, i intro you.. Pastor Gunawan a.k.a Gupek, my home pastor.
Very unique, we can easily find him in the crowd of pastors. It's hard to comment about him, but one thing that im quite sure about is that he's one of the God's sent to change my life. He may not be the one who dragged me into ministries that im in now. But he's the one who made me love my church and my community even more. Looking at his sacrifices, his love to this church, makes me felt more attached to the church. Indirectly he taught me that the 'sense of belonging' is not for others to offer you. It's you finding it yourself and you share the feeling with others. Most importantly, his love and dedication to God seriously dragged me closer to Jesus, looking at him worshipping, gave me the spirit that i want to be in that 'feeling' too! And yes, you're perfectly right.. the Lord God that we've been worshipping is magnificient... and we're all safe in His hands. Last, i love his books collections.. the last time when i waited for him in his house, i read his books "the 7habits of Christians" and yes, that thought me new things.. things that i never know before.. i suggest you all to read this book. His word that i'll always remember, "padi itu semakin tinggi, semakin menunduk". hope this blesses you all!

It's my buddy, rhesa a.k.a mbon, a.k.a tompel.
i've learnt about life from him.. the most important thing is that you're nothing without God. whatever you have now, please don't let them get your self proud. No matter how many balance you have in your account, no matter what car are u riding, no matter what cellphone are u using, no matter how many storeys of house you're staying, no matter how many diamonds you have on your watch face, no matter what title you holds, don't let your self become arogant because of that. he has everything that all teens want, he has money, he has a good supportive family, he has good friends, he has cute pets, he has talents, and his grades are good.. i was wondering how could God blessed him with more wonderful things than others? i just found out what was the secret when i got into his room, and i saw there's a bible and a devotion book laying on his bed. i asked him, who read those? and he said, "me, i read them everynight before im off to dream". Then i began to believe at this statement, "when you're scared of God, it's the beginning of everything". And it's true when you're scared of God, and you still spend time with God even when you've other 'more fun' things await; then all the great things will start to come to you..
he always nurture whatever he has, no wonder he has what he has now..
when people call him boss, he'd reply "what boss? my name is rhesa." and so, the second recipe to happiness is not to be arrogant.
then, when he call his maid/security guard; he always call them with "sir/ms" and always add in the word "please" when asking them for a favour. And more surprisingly, when his security guard bow down to him, he'll bow himself too! hahaah this is the 3rd recipe, is to salute others. respect them, no matter what's their position. And last, is to respect and love your parents.
And all the good things will come to you, you seriously don't need to ask God that you want to be rich.. If God thinks that you worth it, he'll give it to you.. without you asking for it! so people, be good! & all the good things will come to you automatically..



It's desy a.k.a bebek. well, she might be the only girl you'll see on this post. i dunno why, but i gotta admit that my life are more influenced by boys. ok, let back to bebek.
She impacted my life the most after Jesus i think compared to others. why? because she is the one who brought me to Jesus. She is the one who made me repent and experience a new life. For your information, i hate Christianity last time.. and so you know that it requires her hard works and lots of prayers so that i can repent. She started to talk to me about Christianity since i was in my 6th grade of elementary, and i truly repent only in 2002. that means.. 3 years after she first talked about Christianity to me. But i always remember she'll always say this sentence everytime we meet "living in the kingdom of God is very nice". You know what, this means that God never fails her in 3 years time. i was like 'wow' (inside my heart), and i can't find other God who never fails his follower at all in 3 years time. And so when her pastor came to my school, and when he preached i started to feel something different; and so i open my heart for Jesus & started to be grace recipients. I can't imagine if i never met her, then what would my life bcome.. hmm.. thanks gal!

Deny a.k.a dupek a.k.a ubur a.k.a dinai a.k.a du a.k.a duda a.k.a dede. Ah he simply has too many nicks!
He came from the same family background as me, the non-believer.
But what differs him from me is that he is dare enough to tell his parents about it slowly and it results in his parent acceptance. well, it may not yet be a full acceptance, but at least his parents never discourage him from going to church again, and even his parents let him to help the church with his ministry. it didn't happen at once, it surely took time; but what i see is the patience and the faith that count. His family acceptance actually made me believe in Him even more, if He can change his parents, then He will change my parents also.. just that it takes time and the time may not be now. One simple key to this success " wait for the right time, and the time is not right, don't push it to be right. Just wait for the perfectly right time and put some trust into it."
Apart from that i also see the way he walks his life. I totaly believe that he's actually a spoiled. But he managed to be independent. I shall learn from him about this.. He ever said, "why sould you wait for others to do it, just do it; and the rest is up to them if they want to help .. otherwise you'll never get started."
Then the way he always put others before him self.. with sincerity. This thing, i believe not everyone can do.
but what i see the most from him is the way he never criticize.. He'll nod his head to simply everything, and he won't think of what cost he needs to bear for that. And the way he always forgive others, no matter how that significance others hurt him. It really takes God loves to do this! well.. he is just a super man of God. one source that i'll continue to learn from..


-THE END-














Wednesday, November 5, 2008

find "you"


the girl who always tends to be concerned about her clothes and make up
probably thinks her self worth isbased on how she looks..

the guy who is physically agressive with the girl he is dating
probably thinks of that girl as an object,
and of sex as the basis of love.

the girl who tends to overreact when she fails
probably thinks that her significance is based on success

the guy who feels he has to work all the time
probably thinks that significance is based on money,
or acquisition of material things

........


let me close with a verse; its actually the today verse from my laptop.. hope it matches the words above..
it says "He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Holy Spirit; for the letter kills but the Holy Spirit gives life" 2 chor 3:6

WANTED!

folks, better come back soon!! im started to feel "blues".. love u all to the max! <3

the dream church


and so several days back we went for an outing at sentosa.
there was this session called "building your dream church"
every teams showed great sandcastle imaging their dream church.. well i wish i can upload multiple pictures here, but im clueless of how to do that so. so above is just one 'dream' from my team. this is our dream about our beloved'home' mdc in 7 years time.. and so its 2015.
if you can't see it clearly. its actually a big piece of land surrounds the church builing. it can be used for parking lots as well as park.
it will have a big gate.. then there will be 3 main buildings; the office, the sunday school building, and the main auditorium for every week service. it will also has a prayer tower. place where everyone can gather to pray. last, on the top of the auditorium there will be a pool for baptising people who is willing to dedicate their life for God.

the one thing that we missed is hostel! ya, we've been thinking about builing a hostel for the students.. but when we built this sand'church' we forgot to build the hostel! hahaha well it can be place on that big piece of land i believe.

so church goers.. lets see.. will MDC look like this in 7 years time? i want to hear amen only! =P

PRAY.


few days ago i found this pic in my laptop. this pic was taken late at night i remember, right after the 'tragedy'.
this is a picture of mr.D praying for mr.G; everyone can see that they are praying seriously on this picture... but thats not what i want to talk about today.
well, i suddenly want to write about the power of a prayer.
how many times have you had unanswered prayers? how many times have you feel that your prayers are wasted? have you ever think that you don't need to pray anymore?
well.. everyone will experience moments when they face uncertainties. answer that doesn't comes "on time", trouble that seems "unsolved"; and this will end up in laziness to pray again.
im pretty sure that everyone has ever heard of the 3 types of answer towards prayers; those are "yes, no, and not now" and so im not going to talk about them.
but well, i want to talk about unanswered prayers from the different perspective.
when you feel troubled because your prayer is unanswered, dont you ever realize that its because all inside your pray are all asks? ask for forgiveness, mercy, wealth, health, and problem solving. well, i agree to the statement that heaven where Father stays, have everything that we need, and we can ask for them. but its NOT given away freely. when you go to a one-stop shop, where you can find nearly everything inside.. do u need to go the cashier once u done with selecting requirements? even when maybe u might also buy a cashier machine.. but u still need to go the cashier and make payment.
same thing applies when you pray. when you pray.. DO YOU REMEMBER TO GIVE THANKS? for all the graces that you've felt, for all the loves that you've experiences, for everything??
or do u only complains? complaints, and being so naggy. imagine that yourself is God, and your creature do this to you. You've created them, and they have became the apples of your eyes. but they treat you this way.. no thanks just complains.
well, together let's start to count our blessings if we think that there's nothing for us to give thanks. well at least... if have nothing in mind to thanks about, when times get dark.. at least if we can breathe fresh air, if we can eat and our body parts are still complete.. they can be the reasons behind our thanks. accept every moments with gratitude, minimize complains, and you'll see more "yes" answer to your prayers. believe me, cos i've done it. Jesus is great to everyone, but He holds the justice and so of course He'll bless you even more if you love Him greater too.
have a blessed day.. a good day starts with a word of thanks and a small smile.. believe me.