Thursday, December 25, 2008

WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS

this year is a phenomenon. i celebrated christmas twice.. and one more celebration to come..
my first celebration was with my ex school mates at CH and it was pleasant, 2nd celebration was with MDC family & 3rd celebration will be with kins.
christmas is all about gathering.. do u know why? do u remember what happened when Jesus was born? EVERYONE GATHERED. why shall we gather? to share the salvation, the happiness & to spread the warm of christmas.
last night we didn't really do any countdown until 00:00 but we welcome the day with a short praises and prayer. and im sure that i've spent the moment wisely rather than chilling at the orchard and shout merry christmas when the day comes.

anyone, the point of this post is just to wish everyone to have a merry christmas & hope that everyone feel the warm of christmas.. spread the love, kids of Jesus!

last, enjoy this song :)


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Saturday, December 6, 2008

one (last) sang.

i laughed at first when i heard that this was your ring tone, a weird japanese song.
but i began to love the song once i understand whats the lyric is trying to say, and that's when i read the subtitle..

so, bloggers if this song suits you too, enjoy..
(maybe you should off my music playlist on the left hand side so that you can focus on the song)




and im quite sure that i actually miss you too...... farewell, sayang!
enjoy your current life, cos im blessed with mine :)


xx - ollie.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

babtism

and so the story started on the Nov29th, the day we had our bbq party. I was very tired, lacking of sleep hours due to rushing to cope with exam topics. And yet, aft school i couldn't go back but i need to shop for bbq. hmmmm... and blablabala.. lets just get to the interesting part, the bbq party.
and so.. due to boredom while waiting for the "amos" to empty the pit, we played splash water.. until me, mr.D, mr.L, & mr.P got wet. We wet each other untill our tee went wet & mr.D went to buy a swimming tong. I can't remember how many times i got wet & how many times the tee got wet after it dried.. i think 3 or 4 times.. we looked very childish in the water, untill the kids were looking at us, wondering what on earth we do.
And then when the 'smelly' bday tart cameeeee.. we threw tart onto each other faces.. and yuck, the tart actually stink! And so after washed up a little, we played with water again, splashed each other & threw each other into the water. the 'superman' on that day was mr.A who had successfully thrown few guys into the pool.
The bad thing is that i didn't bring any change.. but who cares, i just jumped into the swimming pool & swim rather than being thrown into the pool again!
balablabala.... aft the bbq finished....
me n ms.Y went to Holland to surprise mr.D, and that means we need to reach the house before he arrive, this hard because he drive. And so, after i got scolded by the taxi driver, i successfully reached before he reach. And i hide inside mr.G room, and stand at the back of the door for the last 60mins before the clock strikes to 12 with ms.Y i guessssss.. you know what standing with holding a tart for 60 mins was very boring & it seems like we've been standing for 3 hours..
And then.. we came out with the tart & candle blowing & pray.
when mr.P prayed, we already prepared babtism for mr.D.. that day was simple, only egg, sparkling grape, sweet soya sauce. We didn't use anything maggoty, nice us; rite?
And this is how he looked like aft the babtism.. and yes he stinks..


aft that he simply hugged everyone and dirtied everyone too! after that in that 'blue zone', we made detergent fight, oil fight, dishwasher liquid fight, ah we simply fought with every liquid that we can found in that zone. Oh ya, i remember we also used marquisa concentrate.. this is very very stickyyyyy!
Last, we had to queue for the bathroom.. and of course cleaning our outfit too.. we were all stinks and kinda freezing because all of us were wet! no exception..
hmmmm his bday is always a disaster, last year was an 'earthquake' this year was even a stronger earthquake.. fiuh..

Monday, November 24, 2008

a blast.

firstly i would like to thanks all my good heaps who had put me into shame, but at the same time had brighten my day with the brightest light.
thanks for the expo thingy, i was so shamefull... there were hundreds of people there at the foyer, and you guys just sang and shout.. really appreciate it.. i love all the unexpected happenings.. thanks for putting all the efforts to go all the way to expo, i know expo is not near at all...
like what u guys said, i will not be able to ever forget it. Sidney M may not be around, but Oscar is betterrrr.. hahaha God is good to me all the time :)
and thanks for cancelling that 'bejaters baptism'. love u all to the maxxx, really!
last, i love the juicy!! xoxo <3

deny iskandar.. ur turn is next........... just get urself ready. =P

Friday, November 14, 2008

dalam putihmu..

i just went to my school blog page and found a weblink to the indonesian teacher blog.
i'm interested to this poem, as it is very simple, yet it carries more than one meanings..
there you go, "dalam putihmu.." (inside your purity)

DALAM PUTIHMU

Aku mencoba berputar-putar
Merangkai bunga kata merajut risau
Untuk kusematkan di rambutmu
Yang kadang tak benar nyata
Tak benar warna
Memenuhi hasrat tak bertemu arti

Aku mencoba berlari-lari
Menyiram asa membasah nadi
Untuk menyegarkan jemari
Yang kuyu tak berpori
Agar tak mati

Kutarik mencoba menghardik
Kuku panjangku melukai kulitmu
Tapi darah tak menetes merah
Tapi luka enggan membuka

Aku malah takut
Jika engkau tak lagi punya jiwa
Karena akan sia-sia
Gemeretak gigi-gigi
Di setiap pagi

taken from : www.bahastra.blogspot.com


one more, i also 'captured' this on his side bar..
he wrote this inspirational words:

"Setiap mata adalah berbeda, dan tak ada yang bisa kita lakukan selain berbagi sudut pandang; tanpa harus memaksakan kehendak. Kehati-hatian dalam menilai pendapat orang adalah ciri kematangan jiwa."

eventually, i found a new boyfriend.

and so..., after days of silent cries missing my old-boyfriend, and regretting that i couldn't rescue him from that giant baby..
God met me with a new cutie pie.
The moment when i saw him, i forgot about my ex-Godiva.. and i fell for him.. This time i will really make sure no one can steal him away from me.

MINE FOREVER. hahaha.. so baby, u can have my ex.. im settled with my current (more lovely) boyfriend.


let me intro you.....

(wait, promise me first.. no one else shall fall for my boyfriend, he's mine!)





if you have ever seen rocky junior, this is much bigger, much more cuter, and more adorable! he's rocky senior..
location : secret. (so that no kidnapper will be able to kidnap him)


-little miss rocky-

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

MISSING : BOYFRIEND

and sooo.. i just found a perfect boyfriend yesterday.. but it got stolen by a giant baby.. :(
and what i heard is that he planned to sacrifice my boyfriend in 3 days time..
im going to win back my bf soon before he finish him.. My last info said that it was last seen in The trevose kitchen.. near mbak asih's room. Anyone plan to help me rescue my dear GODIVA?



you see... i won at first.... and my boi was safe in my hands..


until...a giant attack arrived.. and there was nothing in my power to safe my bf :(



for whoever can help me to return my boi before the giant baby finish it, i'll pay your efforts with that small chocolate box in my hands. don't worry they're good, too. Just that i love my bf more.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

surprises along the day..

well, today is Nov 9th,08 and i kinda like today.
i when to church this morning, and i acted as the program director of the run down. And yes, there are many surprises happened on today service.. When i reached the room, i saw no laptop bag.. no body brought laptop to church! i was like "wtheck.." then.. surprise! i saw a plasma screen next to the mixer.. and my word turned from "wtheck" to "cool..!" and so for today service we used a desktop instead of a laptop.. wow! then, next surprise came when i saw edward adjusting the tripod and placed it on the floor.. and yes, the tripod was finally topped with a video-recorder.. and so yeah.. today the e-worship background was lively! aha.. cool.. this is my church! :)
do u want to hear about the next surprise? the preach today was good.. and its quite sensational.. it used coffee machine, and a pot of orchid flower as objects.. kyahaha..
when the service was about to end, there's one following surprise.. there was an additional worship song and so after we are done with the MDC news and suddenly the preacher came to me and asked for an additional worship song.. wahh.. seems that today the Holy Spirit worked very hard! good service for today.. with 2 special guests.. God is great, all the time!

eits.. thats not all. and so all the church goers were invited to Irvin's for restaurant warming. There, one surprise hiden inside. I never know that mr. Baby can sing so well until he performed right in front of my eyes today, and his own-made song was good too! i gotta tell you that he sings better than any male-singers in my church..
This remind me of 'hiden talents'. Everyone alive are equipped with talents.. and rarely you only have one talent. Well, you might have discovered your talent, but are you sure that's all you have? discover yourself more, try more of new things; and you'll find new bonus surprises inside of you and you might not realize before.. my point is.. just don't be scared to try new things, having a talent doesn't mean you'll not fail for the first time. It's common that failure happens on the first try out, but just because you failed once then you don't have any talent in that area! :)

Last, i love today..... my folks are back from their holiday trip. And this means that they can start to draw colors to my plain paper again.. welcome back to Singapore, mates! =)

Saturday, November 8, 2008

IMPACTORS of my life

this post is inspired from Andreas' blog. let me address it as "IMPACTORS"
my church calls their young community as IMAGE, abbreviation of 'impacting all generations', this is because we believe that we're sent to this world to bring impacts for others and to glorify the Lord God..
Below are the list of people that have impacted many areas of my life direct/indirectly and have grown me to this kind of Ollfine. If you happen to see your face underneath.. then let me tell you that i think you are a real impactor. Keep impacting! If you can't find your face, doesn't mean i don't love you just that i haven't learn much from you. So there you go the top several people in my life..

Yes, this is Daddy Jesus. I don't need to talk much about Him as i truly believe that He is the most famous person ever alive.
This life, is i owe Him. The greatest source of love i've ever experienced. All the greatest things.. come from Him. and i'm lucky enough to be chosen to live in this world, and to be forgiven and washed away from all sins its all because His grace. And i can't stand not to love Him. He is the picture that i always want to be like, Someone that i can always treasure and Someone who will never ever fails me. If you, readers, haven't heard about Him.. let me intro you the most perfect creature that the world has ever had.. Jesus.

I understand this picture looks funny, and he looks very narcistic here (upps.. sorry, sir!), but just try to hold your breath for a while and continue to read this blog (maybe with closing the left eye so that you don't need to see this picture)
For everyone who hasn't know him, he is my ex headmaster; as well as my CAS manager. But to be honest with you, i've never seen him as a headmaster at all. He's just too down to earth and he's more to a brother or whoever who can bow down up to our standard. He can drives us here and there, he joins us for student gathering and become the oldest attendant. hahaha.. He shares about his life and about Jesus. Last time, during the madness IB year, i prefer to spent my first break time in his room if he's in; rather than at the library/cafe/canteen. Sharing with him is more 'fun' rather than just sitting at the bench, relax, and sip a cup of coffee. He was the one who brought me to Keputih (for your information, Keputih is the 'sampah' place in Surabaya), and asked me and several friends to do service there. The first week was the hardest ever. The place was stinky and yucks! the neighbourhood community is as yucky as well.. But the 2nd and the 3rd weeks were a lot better, i started to get 'used to' it & i started to love my ministry, serving them & most importantly i began to love them sincerely. Believe it or not, when i first move to Singapore, one of the community that i miss is my Keputih family, the needs but they are also the 'have'. There are many things that i've learnt from him, the way he communicates with people and the way he always like to talk with strangers, and the way he loves his God and his family, last the way he nurtures his job. From my own opinion, he is not the needy; he is richer than any other teachers and headmasters; and if he wants he can creates his own business.. but he chose to humbly him self and be an educator, simply because his love to education and kids.
Last, this is a sentence that he said to me when i went back for my first holiday since i moved to Singapore.. he said," you can never be able to live in 2 different worlds". This statement makes me focus more on 'every happening' in Singapore, and nurtures my life and my ministry here.. well maybe missing one opportunity in negri warna is one of the cost that i've to bear from choosing to serve more in Singapore rather than Indonesia. OK, too much about him, let's move to the next person..

If you can't see his face clearly, it's your Negri Warna Director; Mr. Hartono Adi a.k.a Ko Afuk.
It sounds weird in my ear to call him Ko Har, so let's just address him as what i always address him, "ko pelecehan".
His love to cinematography, theaters, and drama amazes me until now.
He left his school, to study theater; and as i remember his mom disagreed a lot.
But he still followed his dream. The moment i saw him acting, built desires in my heart that i want to join the club too! it's nothing but perfections. His ideas are all crazy! i seriously couldn't believe whatever he said that time when i first knew him. He'll say this kind of thing, "go to that tree and try to ask the tree out for a date.", or "scold that person until you cry (the person is someone who is innocent, and maybe someone new for you also)" or "go the middle of the court and shout and get angry until i let you go home" well.. for sure every eyes will go to you, and think that you're an insane. He is such a nutcase, but i can't deny that all his ideas are brilliant! He can sees what we can't. He can even see a chair, as a house.. i hope now you can see how high is his imagination. I always love his script, & the way he teaches. But one thing that he's very concern about. he will make sure that you are willing to do anything and you wont be shameful for whatever he asked you to do. Once you said, "what, are u sure?" he'll only nod his head, and act angry. He made me fell so deep in love with the movie world just by letting go the old me, throw away that 'logical sense' in my mind, and throw away 'the me' when i was acting as someone else. "it's only all out, or otherwise you'll look even stupider and embarrass yourself more". i agreed to his statement, as i think that taking care of reputation is bullshit; when people ask you to act as a dunce, some may neglact and say no to it thinking that it may ruin their image. But what i see is, even if your role is stupid and embarrassing, but if you manage to perform perfectly; its not your self image that you lost, but its the good reputation that you'll earn instead. =)
Then, when he tought me about "comedia del' arte", wow i fell more to this industry! if you ever watched the dark night, and if you know Joker.. he was playing comedia del' arte. Comedia del' arte is throwing away urself, and be someone else TOTALLY and deny others. and it was really fun! i tried to be mr. Bean for 20 mins, busy with my own 'mr.bean world' deny whatever in front of me, and just forget the ollfine! its totally fun.. all the burdens seem to release. but he always warn me that this can be dangerous as well, once you got so into the role, and you might lose your own self forever. And this is what happened to Joker, he couldn't get out from the Joker in him, that's why he ended up commiting suicide.
One thing that i always remember from his mouth while he was teaching my junior, he said "you really need to have a character to become knownable" "a strong character in you that makes others won't be able forget you, no matter what.. its either positive or negative, but it just have to be strong; depending on what do you want others to remember you as." one very last thing, i love one statement from his church movie, it says "when hands can't reach..faith can" =)

This time, i intro you.. Pastor Gunawan a.k.a Gupek, my home pastor.
Very unique, we can easily find him in the crowd of pastors. It's hard to comment about him, but one thing that im quite sure about is that he's one of the God's sent to change my life. He may not be the one who dragged me into ministries that im in now. But he's the one who made me love my church and my community even more. Looking at his sacrifices, his love to this church, makes me felt more attached to the church. Indirectly he taught me that the 'sense of belonging' is not for others to offer you. It's you finding it yourself and you share the feeling with others. Most importantly, his love and dedication to God seriously dragged me closer to Jesus, looking at him worshipping, gave me the spirit that i want to be in that 'feeling' too! And yes, you're perfectly right.. the Lord God that we've been worshipping is magnificient... and we're all safe in His hands. Last, i love his books collections.. the last time when i waited for him in his house, i read his books "the 7habits of Christians" and yes, that thought me new things.. things that i never know before.. i suggest you all to read this book. His word that i'll always remember, "padi itu semakin tinggi, semakin menunduk". hope this blesses you all!

It's my buddy, rhesa a.k.a mbon, a.k.a tompel.
i've learnt about life from him.. the most important thing is that you're nothing without God. whatever you have now, please don't let them get your self proud. No matter how many balance you have in your account, no matter what car are u riding, no matter what cellphone are u using, no matter how many storeys of house you're staying, no matter how many diamonds you have on your watch face, no matter what title you holds, don't let your self become arogant because of that. he has everything that all teens want, he has money, he has a good supportive family, he has good friends, he has cute pets, he has talents, and his grades are good.. i was wondering how could God blessed him with more wonderful things than others? i just found out what was the secret when i got into his room, and i saw there's a bible and a devotion book laying on his bed. i asked him, who read those? and he said, "me, i read them everynight before im off to dream". Then i began to believe at this statement, "when you're scared of God, it's the beginning of everything". And it's true when you're scared of God, and you still spend time with God even when you've other 'more fun' things await; then all the great things will start to come to you..
he always nurture whatever he has, no wonder he has what he has now..
when people call him boss, he'd reply "what boss? my name is rhesa." and so, the second recipe to happiness is not to be arrogant.
then, when he call his maid/security guard; he always call them with "sir/ms" and always add in the word "please" when asking them for a favour. And more surprisingly, when his security guard bow down to him, he'll bow himself too! hahaah this is the 3rd recipe, is to salute others. respect them, no matter what's their position. And last, is to respect and love your parents.
And all the good things will come to you, you seriously don't need to ask God that you want to be rich.. If God thinks that you worth it, he'll give it to you.. without you asking for it! so people, be good! & all the good things will come to you automatically..



It's desy a.k.a bebek. well, she might be the only girl you'll see on this post. i dunno why, but i gotta admit that my life are more influenced by boys. ok, let back to bebek.
She impacted my life the most after Jesus i think compared to others. why? because she is the one who brought me to Jesus. She is the one who made me repent and experience a new life. For your information, i hate Christianity last time.. and so you know that it requires her hard works and lots of prayers so that i can repent. She started to talk to me about Christianity since i was in my 6th grade of elementary, and i truly repent only in 2002. that means.. 3 years after she first talked about Christianity to me. But i always remember she'll always say this sentence everytime we meet "living in the kingdom of God is very nice". You know what, this means that God never fails her in 3 years time. i was like 'wow' (inside my heart), and i can't find other God who never fails his follower at all in 3 years time. And so when her pastor came to my school, and when he preached i started to feel something different; and so i open my heart for Jesus & started to be grace recipients. I can't imagine if i never met her, then what would my life bcome.. hmm.. thanks gal!

Deny a.k.a dupek a.k.a ubur a.k.a dinai a.k.a du a.k.a duda a.k.a dede. Ah he simply has too many nicks!
He came from the same family background as me, the non-believer.
But what differs him from me is that he is dare enough to tell his parents about it slowly and it results in his parent acceptance. well, it may not yet be a full acceptance, but at least his parents never discourage him from going to church again, and even his parents let him to help the church with his ministry. it didn't happen at once, it surely took time; but what i see is the patience and the faith that count. His family acceptance actually made me believe in Him even more, if He can change his parents, then He will change my parents also.. just that it takes time and the time may not be now. One simple key to this success " wait for the right time, and the time is not right, don't push it to be right. Just wait for the perfectly right time and put some trust into it."
Apart from that i also see the way he walks his life. I totaly believe that he's actually a spoiled. But he managed to be independent. I shall learn from him about this.. He ever said, "why sould you wait for others to do it, just do it; and the rest is up to them if they want to help .. otherwise you'll never get started."
Then the way he always put others before him self.. with sincerity. This thing, i believe not everyone can do.
but what i see the most from him is the way he never criticize.. He'll nod his head to simply everything, and he won't think of what cost he needs to bear for that. And the way he always forgive others, no matter how that significance others hurt him. It really takes God loves to do this! well.. he is just a super man of God. one source that i'll continue to learn from..


-THE END-














Wednesday, November 5, 2008

find "you"


the girl who always tends to be concerned about her clothes and make up
probably thinks her self worth isbased on how she looks..

the guy who is physically agressive with the girl he is dating
probably thinks of that girl as an object,
and of sex as the basis of love.

the girl who tends to overreact when she fails
probably thinks that her significance is based on success

the guy who feels he has to work all the time
probably thinks that significance is based on money,
or acquisition of material things

........


let me close with a verse; its actually the today verse from my laptop.. hope it matches the words above..
it says "He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Holy Spirit; for the letter kills but the Holy Spirit gives life" 2 chor 3:6

WANTED!

folks, better come back soon!! im started to feel "blues".. love u all to the max! <3

the dream church


and so several days back we went for an outing at sentosa.
there was this session called "building your dream church"
every teams showed great sandcastle imaging their dream church.. well i wish i can upload multiple pictures here, but im clueless of how to do that so. so above is just one 'dream' from my team. this is our dream about our beloved'home' mdc in 7 years time.. and so its 2015.
if you can't see it clearly. its actually a big piece of land surrounds the church builing. it can be used for parking lots as well as park.
it will have a big gate.. then there will be 3 main buildings; the office, the sunday school building, and the main auditorium for every week service. it will also has a prayer tower. place where everyone can gather to pray. last, on the top of the auditorium there will be a pool for baptising people who is willing to dedicate their life for God.

the one thing that we missed is hostel! ya, we've been thinking about builing a hostel for the students.. but when we built this sand'church' we forgot to build the hostel! hahaha well it can be place on that big piece of land i believe.

so church goers.. lets see.. will MDC look like this in 7 years time? i want to hear amen only! =P

PRAY.


few days ago i found this pic in my laptop. this pic was taken late at night i remember, right after the 'tragedy'.
this is a picture of mr.D praying for mr.G; everyone can see that they are praying seriously on this picture... but thats not what i want to talk about today.
well, i suddenly want to write about the power of a prayer.
how many times have you had unanswered prayers? how many times have you feel that your prayers are wasted? have you ever think that you don't need to pray anymore?
well.. everyone will experience moments when they face uncertainties. answer that doesn't comes "on time", trouble that seems "unsolved"; and this will end up in laziness to pray again.
im pretty sure that everyone has ever heard of the 3 types of answer towards prayers; those are "yes, no, and not now" and so im not going to talk about them.
but well, i want to talk about unanswered prayers from the different perspective.
when you feel troubled because your prayer is unanswered, dont you ever realize that its because all inside your pray are all asks? ask for forgiveness, mercy, wealth, health, and problem solving. well, i agree to the statement that heaven where Father stays, have everything that we need, and we can ask for them. but its NOT given away freely. when you go to a one-stop shop, where you can find nearly everything inside.. do u need to go the cashier once u done with selecting requirements? even when maybe u might also buy a cashier machine.. but u still need to go the cashier and make payment.
same thing applies when you pray. when you pray.. DO YOU REMEMBER TO GIVE THANKS? for all the graces that you've felt, for all the loves that you've experiences, for everything??
or do u only complains? complaints, and being so naggy. imagine that yourself is God, and your creature do this to you. You've created them, and they have became the apples of your eyes. but they treat you this way.. no thanks just complains.
well, together let's start to count our blessings if we think that there's nothing for us to give thanks. well at least... if have nothing in mind to thanks about, when times get dark.. at least if we can breathe fresh air, if we can eat and our body parts are still complete.. they can be the reasons behind our thanks. accept every moments with gratitude, minimize complains, and you'll see more "yes" answer to your prayers. believe me, cos i've done it. Jesus is great to everyone, but He holds the justice and so of course He'll bless you even more if you love Him greater too.
have a blessed day.. a good day starts with a word of thanks and a small smile.. believe me.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

PATIENCE = hard, but i'll give my best shot.

today, i spent most of my day hours at home. i started to go out only around 7pm.. and i already reached home by 11.
with that very short time of going out; a friend told me in the midst of dinner "be patience".
and when i got home i read a quote from a friend; it said " a handful of patience is worth more than a bushel of brains."
and you know what's the quote of the day on my church's site? it's "be not angry that can not make others as you wish them to be, since you can not make yourself as you wish to be."
eheemm.. if i combine all of them, they actually lead to an answer of my query.
there are moments which you think is the darkest point of your life, and when you face it you might just need a patience. well, im not facing my darkest valley of life, but it tastes bitter during the season and you might just not want to be patient.
Patience is a word that sounds very simple in the ear, but if you really want to try it; its really h-a-r-d. Taking the first step can be easier, but when you're at the midst and you just can't hold on anymore; you'll shout.. i need patience so that i can be patient enough. well its not that easy being patient and you might just giving up in the middle.
When everything seems to goes wrong, and it is not like how you want it to be; when you can't think carefully and you can't "hear" purely, just take a deep breath, continue life.. yet don't make any decision until you feel better.
Facing today is very tiring, i myself dunno why; but there's something that i can't just tell anyone. the only one that i wish to share with is not around and busy for papers. and it's very hard to get through that person cell. Just now, God reminds me one thing..during obstacles and dealing with problems; never rely to your friends for they're not forever. they can help and but they can also harm you.. be selective when choosing who to believe. when you face a dead end; and your friends seem to be busy with their own things; when they are just half-hearted.. you're never alone. Listen to God.. He has something to say.. Jeremia29:11 really strengthen me.
So.. if you have difficulties.. please find God before you find your friends for you yourself always say "im closest to Him" but you never find Him as the first rescue... (Mat 15:8 "this people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me")

J.. i still believe in your promise that You'll not give me burdens that I can't handle. help me to walk with faith and not by side.. so that my life will always tells about Your love, and not fear.
Even when i cry, i'll say "You're faithful, because Your Joy is my strength."

Friday, October 17, 2008

to the three of you


Friday, Sept17th,08.. today is a special day for some of my friends, and me too :)
i have 3 friends having a bday today.. and all the three of them are very good. I wonder why did God send 3 angels on the same day? All the three of them are very "wholesome"
Anyway, me and a group of friends created a surprise "trap" for ms.A; who is one of the bday girl. we took her to a movie at vivo, and plan to throw her to the rooftop "pool" at vivo.. but her bro requested to cancel the plan bcos she has just recovered. then we went to holland for the 'death trap' it has grown to tradition that the bday person must be thrown by whatevery stinks and disgusting.. and so we happened to throw her with whatever that we can found in the fridge.. egg, expired sauces, carrot juice, apple juice, until hair stand. she complaint that its very stink and the small still lasts even after she showered three times.. hahaha poor you, darling!
then my other pal, ms.C which i didnt plan anything for her actually bcause she plan to go to JB tomorrow morning; therefore i prefer her to rest. and last is ms.M; someone who used to be someone who indirectly motivated me a lot, and let her life be my source of learning. unfortunately we are separated by the land and sea therefore i can't throw you a small surprise party.. :(
anyway below is stated for the 3 of you?
ms.A : very simple, for all your wishes to come true and your potential husband to engage you soon! =P
ms.C : hope that you'll find a true happiness very soon.. everysince that your life has too many bitterness inside.. i love you.
ms.M : wish you'll meet your idol anytime soon! and i hope that your future husband is rich enough to supply all your 'heavy' wants.. LOL

...... im off to sleep now.. way too tired..

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

anyway


this is a good read.. be blessed reading it :)

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered.
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies.
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you.
Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight.
Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten.
Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough.
Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God...
It was never between you and them anyway.

(mother theresa)

why..

this is the song that i currently like.. more or less like me! (like always,LOL) it's sung by avril.

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way



Why - Avril Lavigne

Thursday, October 9, 2008

He always come on time! :)

i've been looking for a place to stay for the last 2 months.. i've seen many options, ranging from the whole unit in a condominium, the whole HDB, studios, room in HDB, room in landed houses, room in condominium, you name it.. i've seen most of them and put them into my option list. the agents that i've used.. is countless. LOL.
i actually feel in love with a room in a bungalow in Holland Road. Jesus Christ, the bungalow is seriously HUGE! the garden is everywhere.. in front, at the back, by the sides, everywhere! and you guess what's the rent for a month for that house? 16,000 man! LOL.. but the landlord said that she's very lonely and she needs accompanion; therefore she offered me a room in that bungalow with only 1,200+utilities share. that's a very berry good deal, because the actual rate of that room is at least 4,000.. it was a very fantastic offer.. but then i didn't feel peace that time, no matter how big the house is, how cheap the price is, how dazzling the furnitures are, i didn't feel peace in my heart.. therefore i couldn't sign the tenancy agreement. the other house that i fell for is again a room in a landed house in Bukit timah, 6th avenue.. dang the owner is rich as well.. she even built a swimming pool inside her house.. again, the offer was good, 1,000 for the common room, and 1,600 for the big room+utilities share. this is a great offer.. remembering that they are located at the prime area. yeah, you know i only stay in prime areas :) my max traveling time is only 20mins by cab LOL. but again i fell for the house, but there's something inside of me telling that i shouldn't make a decision this fast, think more.. so yah..
hmphh.. it was always like that when it comes to houseviewing.. and you know i don't have much time left, we are reaching midst of october and i need to move out in 2 weeks time! this isn't great.. i desperately called few agents more, and ask them to rushly find me a shelter! in my little heart i keep on yelling to my ears, God will provides.. God will provides.. ignoring the limited time we have, i keep telling.. you'll be good :)
then yesterday night, after i viewed few studios and rooms near orchard; my friend told me to come down to his house, maybe his aunty has a room to let. So i managed to call the aunty, and said that i need a room with preferably a bathroom attached. then she asked me to come down to her place, and tralalala.. its a penthouse! it's a 3 storey+the upstairs balcony.. so total is 4. its biggggg.. and the room is very pleasant. it may not look as good as my current room, but this room is big as well, and guess what everything is double there. i have 2 desks, i have 4 doors wardrobe, i have 2 book shelves, i have 2 drawers.. everything is 2.. a little surprise is that the room comes with a small fridge and later on the aunty promised to give me a microwave later.. and yeah, it comes with an attached bathroom.. the great news is they have a maid who will cleans all the rooms and the bathrooms as well.. as well cleaning our clothing and irons them. wowwww i don't need iron and wash :P and guess.. how much is the price! 1,200 includes the utilities.. and it's a master room located in the prime areas as well. my tower is the 1st tower from the security and its just at the back of the bus stop.. amenities are very nearby.. full condo facilities, supermarket, saloon, cafe, etc..i kinda feel good about the place. and what's make me more excited is that the aunty is good, she's lovely and simply charming she has a doctor husband, whom i heard is also good. and yeah, they are Christians. when i first went in the house i saw the sign "God bless hour home" near the shoe rack. i was like.."hmph.. this house should be warm enough with enough blessings inside" and yeah.. i finally took the room, and i kinda like the room.. :) i want to say that God is extra good, He has planned everything for us, things that we never think about, He has thought about it before. who thinks that i'll find a house at night when the time for house viewing is already over? God is great, and He always come on time! from now on, what ever problems you face, stop saying.. "i don't have enough time" you always have enough time, but you may not have the abilities to cope with that time, but God has it.. and He'll do it for you. as long you already gave your best shot.. then what else matter? just surrender, and God will deal with the rest! :)

let's change our mind set.. stop saying "God, i have a biggggg problem" instead, say this; "problems, i have a BIG GOD"
have a blessed day everyone.. :]

Monday, October 6, 2008

life is awesome

geez.. its been a while since i last wrote my blog... hmph i've just came back from Indo..
well, it was fun.. and yeah a lot of funny things happened during the holiday.
but what's very important is what was happened on the day on my return. i was on the cab on my way back home from the airport.. and Mr. D already told me about the mission that we need to do for mr.G's bday. i was like dang... kyahaha..
ok let's go straight to the bday surprise.. what happened last nite?? i was asked to play a role as a troubled kid and i need to ask Mr.G to counsel me..this is due to my big fight with ms.A.. and BINGO! he got the trap.. and so we gave him his bday surprise.. everyone were happy that night i guess, except mr.G who ran out his tension LOL.
and today is the day.. there were few changes on the rundown.. and this gave a tremendous shock to simply everyone who are in charge. but it came out ok.. and we all as a family were very happy and blessed.
time to sleep.. everyone must be very tired today.. today and yesterday are very long long dayyy.. life is really awesome with its blessings that each day carries.. :)

Friday, September 26, 2008

believe

i'll be good,
i'll be mature,
i'll be patient,
i'll be lovely

don't ever worry about me;
i'll be allrite, i promise;
i'll try my best to hold this tears..
when i started to get jealous

don't say a word,
i'll understand,
i know you do it for our own goods
i'll be understanding

reff:
do what you think is right;
and i'll agree with that
cos i believe in you
and forever i will

bridge:
i'll wait,
i'll wait
the time will answer,
and i believe.. we're meant to be.

terima kasih cinta :)

kyahahaha.. im happy todayyy.. finally recorded! akhirnyaaa..
thanks for all cinta2ku.. saudara seiman, saudara sejiwa.. terserah dhe.. thanks pokonya..
kyahahah.. akhirnya siap launch juga nanti early october lagu ini..
thanks for all the efforts that u guys have put in.. hahaha maap klo saya cembetut depan2nya n ngomel klo g ada soulnya.. tp at the end nyanyi2nya pada bagus kok.. the audiences feel loved :)
thanks to the composer.. ko yoab.. to my editor + my singer.. dupek NAFSU.. and my kipar as the drummer.. last but not least.. the guitar player skaligus yg menyediakan tempat rekaman.. hahaha tengkyu koko bayi besar elek! =P
the song sounds lovely and im happy :) tp lebi happy lagi kalo es tellernya dibungkus & dbagi2 wkt rekaman.. LOL

p.s mangganya enakkkkkkk ;) kyahahaha...

ayo bkin lagu kedua lagiii^^

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

atas nama cinta

hari ini.. byk sharing ttg cinta.. ttg Mr.B yang dibutakan oleh cinta, dan tentang mr.D yang bilang "i dont worth those sacrifices".
ada perbedaan yg significant dr 2 orang ini.. yg satu rela melakukan apa aja demi cinta.. well smoga aj beneran cinta.. mo dsuru lompat kali aja mau mungkin.. 1 lagu tidak mau orang berantem/berkorban demi dia.. katanya he doesn't worth it.
well.. susah dbilang mana yg bener mana yg salah.. mana yg cinta mana yg nafsu..
mnurut ak, stiap orang itu dasarnya memang sudah berbeda, mereka py porsi masing2, py batas masing2, dan py cara sndiri2.. ada org yg suka extreme love, ada yg suka jian jian dan dan de ai.. klo ditanya mana yg bodoh mana yg bijak.. susah jawabnya, cos there is no right or wrong to love.
cuma.. coba check & kenali diri kita.. type mana kita?? kenali diri kita, kenali medan, baru susun strategy perang! ;)

23.9.08

kyahahaa.. i supposed to wake up at 8 and attend class.. but i ended up wake up at 11.. and i was like... "syuttt i need to go somewhere"
i was supposed to go accompany mr.D to Bedok to meet ms.G, but there was no text reply on my phone so i was like, " maybe he's still sleeping.. so why don't i go back cuddle with my bolster?" LOL
then my phone rang at 12+.. mr.D said he's already on his way, & never received my text msg.. *duarrr* we just found out that the text was successfully sent; but mr.H opened it when mr.D was away to the bathroom and so mr.D didn't know if there's any text got in. ok.. 1st miss communication of the day..
thennn i rushed to get ready and managed to get a cab.. 2nd problem.. i have no idea which part of bedok i shall go to.. is it north or south.. so allrite, let's just drop @ MRT. wishing that the Mc.D is visible from there.
when the cab stopped, i was like "where is the mrt station?" i didn't see any station here.. what i saw is only HDB blocks and supermarket lol.
"where on earth am i actually at??" -.-"
saving my integrity, and i didnt wish mr.D to call me stupid, so i tried to go around and find where on earth the Mc.D is, or at least let me find the MRT station. Poorly, i can only found banks, and market.. Scared to get lost in the market, i decided to humbly call mr.D.. he tried to explain how to get to Mc.D but i still couldn't find the way to get there.. danggg.. i think my sense of direction is really2 low! +.+
it was 2mins before i met mr.D next to the market.. and my lovely phone dropped.. it jumped out from its case, and the battery ran over the floor.. shoot!! well, i know im going to change my casing soon.. but doesn't mean i can drop my phone rite?? argghhh
thennnn we made a decision to go to the city, to do some shopping.. *danggg! city is only 10 mins from my home man, and im already at this desserted land called Bedok which is bloody far!*
ok.. so we took MRT ( i found out that the mrt station is actually located at the back of that supermarket) to Dhoby Gaut to and met mr.H there.
i remembered that we only went up & down the escalator @ PS then we moved to Bugis. hahaha at least we can take photobooth there.. gezz.. i've become very narcist lately.. what have i eaten, huh?? my happy time started at Bugis.. because we took pics :P for ur information, mr.H hates taking pics, and to get him into the box takes some times..
but we did take pics and i got that angel & demon pic.. the pic that i've eying from a long time ago.. but never get it.. cos they always want to take that boring comic pics..-.-
after thatttt shopping time.. buttt hmphh you know, its Bugis! hard to find ATM machine, and they don't do NETS/VISA/MASTER there.. arghh u know that im not a cash type person.. sooo this troubled me.. btw i ended up buying 3 tees.
done with the shopping and the butts started to ache, we decided to go to swensen's to hit the chair and satisfy the tummy. and yesss.. mr.D brought an outside food, and the manager asked us not to consume it inside.. buttt its gonna melt if we dont consume it directly! soo mr.H quarreled with the manager.. kyahahaha.. what a day lol!
we ordered like A LOT.. till the table was so full and we couldn't finish the food..
then i went home.. the bus took like forever!
on top of all, today is CSL's bday.. and i didn't go to my fiance' house for surprise due to my very late wake up timeeee! arghhh.. really man, what a day!
tomorrow should really be better than today........

love shows me everything

remember the first time i met you,
the way you touched my heart,
the way you handled me with love,
was the time i realize the purpose of my life

this feeling in my heart
has grown so deep
dunno when did it start
how did i fall for U?

bridge:
Love shows me everything
love is never wrong
You're the heaven sent

Reff:
i need U
i love U
You're the reason I live

I don't know how to show it
But i know i love you
Cos' You're all the reason that i need..
...to love.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

inspirations..

im tired and i really miss my blanket n i really want to cuddle with my bolster!
dangg.. but i need to at least.. get a story, to be put nicely in a poem/lyrics.
i normally get my inspirations from everywhere.. even from my community. i ussually love to sit alone on the toilet bowl or sitting in the middle of the basketball court to get inspired..
but latelyyy thank God that i don't need to do that anymore, sometimes inspiration just comes; and its ready to be made as poems.
but todayyyy was really different. i even decided to go to sentosa island to find inspirations there.. sitting in the cable car, enjoying the view, wishing to get inspired. butttt nothing crossed my mind!
danggg.. i really need to get out from the box, i really need inspirations, and i really need to start writting. im hoping for heaven sends.. =P

Thursday, September 18, 2008

special


i love being on the stage, i love being in the crowd, i love talking in front of a lot of people, i love walking in front and leads the group, i am me; with a high self confidence.. at least that's what i normally think and that's what people think as well.
it's very easy to gain self confidence when you're facing someone/people who are (or at least you think) "less" than you. You'll feel more weighted and feel better therefore you can be so confidence. one of my "wrong'' key to my self confidence is simple, is to take your conversation partner or whoever you need to face and think of them as they are more stupid than you. no matter how clever they are. this way, you're mouth will still speak out its words and your feet will not shake.
but facing somebody who you exactly know is more clever, more experienced, or whatever "more" than you, you'll feel very small. the more you feel amazed with your speaking partner, the more you don't dare to speak cos you're afraid that you'll sound silly.
i saw this good quote that i uploaded as the head of my post, one of its lines says that every person has something that no one else has. sounds great and powerful, rite?
even the one person whom you think is the stupidest person alive on earth has something that you don't have, and that person whom you woo a lot, whom you admire a lot, whom you think is the best and the most perfect creature on earth doesn't have what you have..
everyone is unique, and is equipped with something that only he/she has, and everyone is special.
therefore its not right to be small hearted as well as is not right to think that you're better compared to someone else. everyone is equivalent, and everyone is special.
treat everyone the same, and don't close your heart while your eyes are widely opened.
treasure everyone, cherish all the moments that you have with them; then you'll then find out how special are they actually are. :)

I WISH YOU WERE HERE..


i dig my toes into the sand,
the ocean looks like a thousand
diamonds strew and across a blue blanket
i lean against the wind, pretend..
that i’m weightless!
that i’m happy.. HAPPY!!

i lay my head onto the sand,
the sky resembles a black lit canopy with holes punch in it
i’m counting UFO’s.. signal them with my lighter,
and at this moment i’m happy.. happy!

this world’s a roller coaster,and i’m not strapped in.
maybe i should hold with care, but my hands are busy in the air!
I WISH YOU WERE HERE.


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maybe i just miss you too much, good pal!

take care.. and always remember this:
"we'll be fine" no matter what circumstances we'll face in front
and besties will always stay besties cos friendship isn't determined by the distance, and anyway it's just a flight away! forget about the distance, remember the good old laughters that we shared :)

lessthanthree


Today, I bet my life
You have no idea
What I feel inside.
Don’t be afraid to let it show
For you’ll never know
If you let it hide.

I love you,
take this gift, and don’t ask me why.
Cause if you will let me..
I’ll take what scares you,
and hold it deep inside.
And if you ask me why I’m with you,
why I’ll never leave;
Love will show you everything..
that’s the only thing that i can tell.

thank you to the dearest you.


for all the thoughts that i've had, for all tears that i’ve shed, for all the troubles that had happened to me and i had overcome, for all the precious life lessons i’ve learned from you nothing i can give back apart from the meaningless word of thank you.
i’ve got so much from you, if i can say, you’re all the resources that i need to stay alive, and you’re the God sent. you may not look dazzling and different when i first met you. you’re just another human, who will draw another friendship story in my life.
as times goes by, i can never stop learning from you, from the time that we have shared, the joy that we’ve got together, the tears that we’ve shed, the pain that we’ve felt, the coincidences that we shared, and the God that we have been worshiping together. there is one thing that i can see very clearly, indirectly or directly; you’re always there. i don’t care if many say you’re just kind, but for me you’re the God sent. and if before i have never had the chance to see and feel it earlier, i feel guilty. For the chance that i’ve wasted stupidly, i’m truly sorry. for the love that i never care about before, i feel very troubled. let me tell you one secret, i can be like today mostly is because of you. i’ve learned most from you, your dedication, your love for others, your golden heart, those things that i’ve never realized before now become the most precious things that im eying for. i shouldn’t go for looks, cos they deceive. i shouldn’t go for wealth cos even that fades away. i shouldn’t go for health, cos nobody can run away from old sickness.i should go for love, and thanks He reminds me of that.
if i can have the chance to tell you before you tell me, let me be the first to tell you; you’re someone meaningful, and you’ve changed people or at least me to a better way. if i can choose to keep an accompany till i die, i’ll stick with God’s choice and favor you no matter what variable changes i’ll see in the future. even if you become a poor, even if you can’t use your eyes anymore, i can be your eyes. even if you become a handicapped, i can be your feet. as long still you still have the heart for me and for God i’ll still stick with you. you and your family shared smiles and tears with me and maybe that’s the best "sharing" moments i have ever had. thank you for everything. me and Jesus love you. :)

andai saja aku bisa lebih dikenal..

*this post was taken from my old blog too. but i kinda like it and would like to share it with you, bloggers and readers.. uppsss.. its in indonesian unfortunately! sorry for the inconvenience. :(

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HIDUP, banyak yang bilang itu berkah; banyak yang bilang itu hukuman.
dalam hidup banyak hal yang akan membuat kita tertawa, menangis, menggerutu, tersenyum, gembira, ato bahkan membawa kita pada kematian.
apa yang bisa membuat kita bahagia?
kita bahkan bisa kesulitan memberi definisi bahagia. banyak orang bisa berkata "saya bahagia" tanpa tau apa arti bahagia itu sendiri. saya sendiripun bingung apa arti sebenarnya dari bahagia, saya cuma tau saat ada orang yg perhatian sama saya, saya bahagia. saat ada orang yg mencintai saya, saya bahagia. saat saya lebih diberkati dari orang lain, saya bahagia. saat saya bisa menjadi berkat bagi orang lain, saya bahagia.. aku bisa tulis essay tentang apa saja hal yang membuatku bahagia, tanpa tahu definisi pasti dari bahagia. satu yang bisa aku bilang, bahagia adalah satu perasaan yang membuat kita jadi lebih bersemangat, satu perasaan dimana kita merasa bersyukur bisa merasakannya.

pernah mengalamin kebahagiaan yang bercampur dengan penderitaan?
aku pernah. sebut saja contoh kongkritnya, sahabat. aku punya satu sahabat cewek, orangnya baik, berpendirian, tapi menurutku dia satu orang yg justru kurang mengenal aku. dia selalu memperlakukanku dengan hal2 yang menurut dia baik, dia menyanyangiku menurut caranya, dia membagikanku semua yang dia punya, mungkin tanpa dia tahu apa sebenarnya yang aku butuhkan.
mungkin aku dosa bilang dia tak mengenal hatiku, karena aku sndiri tak pernah bercerita tentang siapa aku. tapi perlukah itu? i thought a good friend hears even the unspoken..
tanpa dia sadari, sering dia membuatku cemburu. well, kasih itu tidak cemburu, dia juga tidak marah. tapi bukannya aku sendiri juga masi manusia biasa yang juga belum bisa mengasihi dengan sempurna?
kata-katanya yang mungkin menurut dia cuma sekedar kalimat ringan yang dia lontarkan dengan senyum mengumbar, mungkin terdengar biasa saja; tapi buatku kadang itu bisa menjadi sumber air mataku. apakah aku yang kurang tegar?
tidak jarang aku harus mengalah, berpura2 bahagia dengan semuanya. tapi sampai kapan aku bisa lepas semua topeng? bukan aku tak mau mengalah, tapi semua hal yang paling aku sukai, paling aku sayangi, paling aku idam2kan.. semua sudah aku bagi. tapi dia tidak pernah merasa kalau itu pemberian terbesar yang bisa aku beri, mungkin bukan sesuatu yang berharga bagi dia, tapi berarti seluruh dunia menurutku.
ahh.. andai saja aku bisa lebih dikenal lebih baik..

p.s : kadang aku berpikir, apa guna 1000 teman tapi tak seorangpun dari mereka mengenalmu? aku memilih 1 teman baik yang mengenalku luar dalam.

girls vs guys

i copied-pasted it from my previous blog.. and wish i can share it here. this kinda lame, but i like it because it speaks about reality. ow yah, i forgot to tell you; im easily disgusted by hypocrites!

do girls need guys more, or guys need girls more? there’ll be an endless answer to it.
practically, they need each other; that’s true.
girls can’t live without guys, and the same thing apply to guys. but why is that so?
the main theory is just that you can’t live alone. i highlighted the word alone here because it said alone, not the opposite sex.
thinking logically, girls can live with the help of other girls, no guys help needed. isn’t that true? well, of course get real; take out that thinking about making offspring and so on, i know that can only be happen with the help of the opposite sex.
but apart from making offspring, technically we can live without the opposite sex, true?

i’m just trying to be open, and get honest with myself; this theory doesn’t resemblance me at all. there are times when i think that life would be much more happier if i’m the only girl alive in this world, and the rest are guys. oh.. i’ll be so pampered and many will idolize me! =D
take a minute to think.. if you’re facing a problem, who will you tend to tell the first? will it be your closest partner from the same sex or from the opp sex? let’s say you have 2 besties : Ms. A and Mr. B, and you’re a girl. who will you ring for the first time when you face troubles / you found something very interesting? who will be the first to inform? i bet it’ll be Mr. B.
well, of course making sure that problems / the interesting stuff is not a ‘girls business’ or ‘guys business’.
then.. when you feel so bloody down and you just feel trapped, who will you wish to take care and comfort you? will that be your best friend from the same sex? well ya that might be right, but it’ll help more if the friend from the opp sex is the one to pamper you, true? well.. i just don’t want to be a hypocrite and telling this openly.
im a girl, so i first thought that guys are superheroes. they can easily cheer girls up, do things that girls can’t do. but after i take a deeper look, same thing apply to guys.
guys too, they feel that the opp sex are angels, the helping hands that they always wish for.

all these while i’ve been thinking, and i couldn’t find the answer for this mystery. why is that so? why are we easily touched and attracted by the opp sex and things couldn’t apply the same to the same sex.. why is that so? well, im not talking about that love relationship.. but, you know..

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have you ever been in the situation where you’re away with a group of friends, and all of them are your friends from the same sex. well you can go cheers and be happy, but don’t you feel something is missing?

let’s get to a real example. my best friend broke up a while ago.. when she broke up, i tried to comfort her, i tried to text her, i tried to ring her.. on the phone she said, "im busy right now, i’ll ring you back in short while." & i waited for the call for hours till i decided to call again, then she answered quickly and said, "i’ve got to go to work, i’m sorry but i’ve to hung up, maybe next time then we can chat." that time, honestly i feel a bit sad cos she didn’t accept my good deeds. but at the same time i’m happy, she’s busy and so she might not have the time to be sad and to remember about this stupid guy who pissed her off. but then i still feel that this won’t do, so i texted my girl-friend who is also her good friend, and asked her to comfort her too. she did text her, but there was no reply too. we tried to call her online on msn and there was only a short reply.. the image that we got it’s like she didn’t want to talk much that time, and we are ok with that.
after a while i figured out that right after she broke up, she called this particular guy (her guy-friend) and cried to this guy and told him about anything, and he comforted her.
after that he (this guy-friend) texted me asking me to take care of her cos she needs accompanion desperately. i told him the situation that i had already tried but i found her running away from me, same thing to my other girl-friend.
from that day, we know during that down season of her, she didn’t really need us to comfort her. she just need us to listen to all her stories, and so she can feel a bit light. but she doesn’t really need us to pamper her. instead she needs a guy-friend to comfort her, not a girl-friend.
well, you might say that my friend is cheeky and naughty. but take a look at yourself.. have you ever been in her position and what did u do? aren’t you just the same like her..?
i asked my self this question, and i got the same reply to what she did. maybe if i was her, i will not need a girl-friend at that time to accompany me, instead i might need a guy-friend to comforts me. not because im hunger for the guys’ touch, but you know… i can say that guys understand girls better than girls understand girls. don’t you guys think the same way too? girls understand you guys more than boys understand you. isn’t that true?

one more concrete example, you’re facing this current problem, and 2 people give you solutions. one is ms.A and the other one is ms.B, if you’re a girl you’ll tend to listen to mr.A more, you’ll take this solutions heavily and really put that to mind. isn’t that so?
thinking about all these.. i can never stop wondering why.. WHY??
that’s a mystery that live keeps.

now i began to understand why God created Eve to accompany Adam, not Adi, or any guy.. because most of the time, we need the opp sex more than we need our friends from the same sex. don’t talk about marriage, don’t talk about love, it still that way, it’s the same law apply.
girls couldn’t live without guys, and guys can’t live without girls. no wonder they make the perfect match. =)

…… life is full of mystery. that is also why girls fight more with guys too, not with girls. all the stitches in girls heart mostly made by guys, not girls.. and the same thing apply to guys too. isn’t that true?
the opposite sex : the source of happiness and the source of all the sorrows and sadness.

but let’s take a look at this equation:
HAPPINESS + SADNESS = LIFE

ahaha.. you know what i mean! =P

soft launch

i've been thinking.. shall i create a new blog? and this blog is the answer to it.
i'll not update my previous (friendster) blog again, because i think nobody reads friendster blog anymore. kyahaha..
so let's switch to blogger! have fun blogging for all users and readers :)
and i hope that im welcomed here.
have a fantastic day and stay blessed, people :)

love,
me.